Ngebetein bgt!!!!!
Niat baik k New Media nyari informasi kursur eh malah dapetin karyaku sendiri diambil orang, dijadiin prtfolio pula!!!!
damn!!!!
Udah nyolong, ga nyantumin sumber, malah tambah jelek pula hasilnya…..OI YOU DRS. KEY,H!!!!! FUCK YA!!!!!
Agi_Chykalophia
……………bulan" ni emang berat bgt. tugas" panitia buat kmdgi tar berat bgt, blon ini blon itu trus urusan KRS lalu hal" yang lain……..cepatlah berlalu!!!!!!!! well, ada hal lain lagi, kenapa ya belakangan hal ini nyiksa bgt, nah it’s not about the work and stuff, cuma sebuah perasaan yang aku takutin bkl terjadi. perasaan sayang ma seseorang yang mulai memudar. salah ga sih??? hakiki ga? alah bahasanya, kaya ngerti aja apa arti kata hakiki :p dia baik, malah terlalu baik buat seorang cewek kaya aku. tapi kenapa aku ga bisa jadi seorang cewek yang baik buat dia? another, aku malah ngerasa makin jauh dari dia, perasaan kaya gini nyiksa bgt apalagi di kala sendiri, nyibukin diri juga ga gitu berarti, trus apa salah aku mulai ga ada rasa lagi? atau ini hanya perasaan sesaatkah??? sigh………
Agi
tonight my uncle fly back to Perth, me and my family went to airport to say good bye to him. lots of people on the airport tonight. i didn’t realize this before but when my ucle was about leave, me and my family say good bye then I walked and saw other people do the same thing, like some people hugged their friends, some people kiss the person they love before leaving, some kids waving their hand to their father who will fly, and more. I was standing not far from these people, then i saw a balinese young lady with a young Australian guy(I think) says good bye to her family, then the older Australian guy came and hug the young Balinese lady and tell her mother that he and Peter(the young Australian guy) would look after her, I was like…..Peter? that name…yeah……just like my best friend in Illinois, Peter. Anyway…lots of things happen in our life….one time we meet someone or some people then later we will say good bye to them, this is always happen in life. it’s like a circle…and me….if this time i said good bye to people may be someday i will be the person who will receive the word good bye.
huhuhu….it’s been a while since my last
blog 
anyway…i am so damn confused
lately…i was a skinny girl..although i
still am but not like i used to be. i
mean…i didn’t have fat in my waist last
year but now…how could i have fat in my
waist? damn! this is not ok. i guess being
skinny is the best :p i’m hapy the way i am
but this fat…….argh!!!! i hate it! do u
know how to loose it? i really need ur
advise people!!!! please help me (T.T)
Well enough about my fat….i wanna talk
about something serious which hapen in our
earth. i bet u have seen the news on tv
lately. u know news about disaster in China,
War in Libanon and Israel, super heat in
California, Terrorism stikes again in London
and USA, the threat issue about other
disaster in Indonesia like
Tsunami….sigh……what on earth is
actually happening?????? i don’t understand
this. 
let’s look back to the past decade.
do u remember that our earth wasn’t that
messy last decade? do u remember that we
hold peace in our earth? is it only me or
other people on earth do feel that this
planet become unsafe to live anymore? it
feels like whereever u hide, something bad
will find u. when i think of this….all i
can do is nothing, but hand over everything
to the One, God! if these are His will then
no one can stop it right? well i have
enough explaining what i feel lately. any
feed back just send it to me! :]
Agi
Sigh………damn kenapa sih ma gw? well, i don’t know….sebenernya ga ada yang aneh ma diri gw but sometimes i feel like my self is just pathetic……..lately gw pengen bgt punya cowok but…..i decided not look for any local boy anymore….bukan kenapa-napa seeh cuma…..i never got it straight and smooth with them….i wanna have a date with a non local boy for once…tapi entahlah….kadang semua itu jadi ga penting……..who cares if i have a boy friend or not? without a boy friend….i can do anything that i want…..but i want to have someone whom i can say goodnight to,also someone who loves me the way i do to him……….sometimes i wish…if Peter were here……..i probably go on a date with him….but the fact is he isn’t here………hes too far from me…..and this is why it’s just about how sucks being a single like me……btw…semester 2 udah mo kelar…and i’m preparing my self to look up for a job…..hm…..can’t wait for holiday!!!!!!!!
Agi…..supid single lady (>.<)
BT, kesel, sebel, benci pokoknya semuanya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is riddiculous, gw udah test and dapet level intermediate 3 buat kelas baru di salah satu tempat kursus bhs inggris di Bali eh pas mo byr uang kursus malah dibilang kalo kelas intermediate 3 tu ditiadain….what the heck???????? wanna know why? karena katanya ga ada cukup orang untuk kelasnya……DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!! trus yang ada cuma inter 1 and inter 4…..no way man, i won’t take inter 1 tapi testku ga bisa masuk di inter 4,alias my test result stuck on inter 3……o….O….Shit!!!!!!! kesel bete bgt!!!!! masa ,mesti nunggu lagi 2 bulan bwt next term????????????? yeah….fine…whateva!!!!!!!!!!
(>_<)Agi
Sabtu kemaren giliran nyokap gw ngajak satu keluarga buat spend some time-lah di hotel tempat nyokap gw kerja. hehehehehehe……..it was fun ya know…only for last Sat and Sunday. tapi anehnya ……kalo tiap hari gw ngerasa BT kok kemaren ga ya? hehehehe ya iyalah namanya juga spend some time….and btw, ada cowok bule yang ga sengaja ngelempar bola and tu bola mendarat di kepala gw…anehnya lagi kok ga sakit ya???? trus ya gw kenalan ma tu cowok and he’s name is Shane. australian guy…..tapi brondong bo…..masih enem belas taon nah gw udah mo 19 tar oCtober emang seeh dia tar mo 17 bulan Juni ni. but still….i felt so old. hehehhe….and he didn’t believe that i am 18 years old. he said that i looked younger….HOEK……makasi ya gw udah dibilang lebih mudaan huahahahahahaha…….this is nuts!!!!!!!!! anaknya rada aneh tau ga….bukan aneh gimana” or freak gitu,cuma jalannya aja rada…um….ga sreg aja ngeliatnya hehehehe……..then we talk-lah walked around hotel for a bit…..yeah…gitu” aja cuma yeah….it was fun though….at least dapet temen baru…..hehehehhe i love having new friends…..yeah yeah…now go back to my normal life……………….TUGASKU BLON KELAR SEMUA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH…………..!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahai liburan cepatlah datang….aku menunggumu……hehhe
Agi
12 May 2006, jam 7 lebih di pagi hari ni aku denger adikku bilang…”coba masih ada bronees disini Pak ya?” dalam hati aku bertanya…..hey ngapain ngomong seolah2 bronees udah ga ada???? Dengan rasa penasaran aku paksa diriku bangun….jam 8 waktu Bali aku menengok ke segala arah tapi tak menemukan sosok bronees yang biasanya tergeletak lelah di depan kamarku. Adikku berkata….”Kak Ari, Broneesnya mati.” Ga mungkin bronees mati!!!!!!!!!!!! Ga mungkin!!!!!!! Tolong bilang kalo semua ini bohong!!!!!!! Tapi bronees emang udah ga ada lagi aku ga bisa nahan kalo aku udah ga akan pernah liat bronees lagi ga akan lagi…….kenapa ga ada yang bangunin aku pas bronees udah mati??????? Aku blon sempet bilang kalo aku saying bgt ma dia!!!!!!!!!!! Aku saying banget ma bronees!!! Kata bokap dia diracunin orang dan semalem pagar rumah ga dikunci, paginya jam 4 bronees udah muntah2 dan udah ga bangun2 lagi. Tapi kenapa harus bronees-ku?????? Kenapa harus dia??????? Dia baru 2 tahun ama aku, kenapa harus Bronees Tuhan???????????? Kenapa ambil bronees???????? Bukannya banyak anjing jalanan di Bali apalagi di Denpasar ni…..?????? kenapa harus Bronees?????
Karang udah ga ada lagi yang nunggu aku pas pulang dari kampus ato dari mana2, ga ada lagi yang nungguin aku makan dengan sabar dan berharap aku bakal bagiin makananku, ga ada lagi yang ngedorong pintuku sambil nengok pas aku lagi buat tugas,………aku mau Bronees tetep kaya gitu!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tapi kalo emang Bronees harus pergi…..tolong Tuhan…. Jaga Bronees…. He is a good dog………………… 
Jamelia
Who
would have pay an attention to this type of girl; with old fashion, with no
make up, with a pony tail, with glasses and braces. Ok, let’s conclude that she
looks ugly or in the other word…..not interesting! It does sound like a
punishment but tell me, is there any guy in the world would interested with
that type of girl? Well, may be there’s some but I’m talking about “normal
popular guy” here. And we all know that the answer is there is not even one
“normal popular guy” would interested nor like that type of girl. Well, that is
what happening to me. My name is Jamelia. Not a popular name, I know. Mom said
that it was a very special name. But guess what? I am not special! I am a
student in one of the best and popular university in this city. I’m in
Photography major. I have a normal family, normal friends and normal dog. What
I don’t have are: popular family, popular friends or popular dog. I consider my
life is so pathetic. How could I not say it so? My normal friends……….they had
been in relationship with guys, making out, kissing, dating and stuff. But how
come I haven’t get into it? Not even once? My age is turning 21 and I haven’t
had been in relationship with guys, making out, kissing, dating and stuff. I am
pathetic.
***
A
wonderful morning welcome me with its fresh air and a warm sunshine. That’s
great because I can see it as a good opportunity of taking B&W pictures. I
know it sounds funny but by taking pictures, I can just be me, without thinking
about what happen with my real life, which is still pathetic. Sigh……
I’m
trying to find a good angle to taking the pictures. While I was trying to focus
my camera to this great landscape of a beautiful mountain with these green rice
field, I saw her. A lovely lady. She…she was the most beautiful woman I have
ever seen. She walked to me. We talked a while. She said she was a model. And
surprisingly, she told me that she was just like me before she transformed to
be the way she is now.
“You can take the change to be popular when you change your self to be
that way”
And that’s what she said
***
It
feels like the time is freezing now. Right now. At his moment. She can feel the
confidence flowing through her veins. Those eyes starring at her, didn’t blink
at all. Following her steps with their eyes. I know the question in their head.
Who is she? She is me, Jamelia. No! I mean my new name, Jamie.
My
first day of transformation is awesome. I can’t believe that I’m hanging out
with The Lady’S (a group of the most popular girls in my university). This is
totally great! I feel so… so… so…Lady’S today! Everybody love me, Jamie. And I
think I have made a guy named Jason interested to me. He is definitely a dream
guy of mine.
***
Second
day of my transformation. Everything is cool. I did the things that The Lady’S
usually do. Shopping, pedicure & manicure, going to club, drinking alcohol.
Geez, I almost throw up. But the most important thing, I am popular now and I
did what the popular girls do. It was fun, enough.
I
met Jason today. We had a short conversation. I can’t believe that he is so
cute. When he talks, smiles and all. I think I love him. But our conversation
didn’t even interesting. He didn’t even ask me to go out. A date. I want him to
ask me to a date. I am popular now and beautiful. Why didn’t he ask Jamie to a
date? Time. Yeah, I think he needs time. Right, that must be the reason.
***
Lisa’s
party is today. I got invited. Sure I got invited. Who wouldn’t invite Jamie?
But everybody would definitely won’t invited Jamelia. I dressed up, put make up
on my face, jewelry in my neck, bracelet, and a pair of lady’s shoes. I am
ready to go to Lisa’s party.
Everybody
is there. Also Jason. With Kim? Kim? Why Kim? I can’t believe he chooses Kim
than me! She is not even prettier than me. Not even more popular than me. She
is as same as Jamelia!
People
look happy and enjoy the party tonight except me. I know I drank too much but I
don’t care. Jason chooses Kim! I just can’t take that. I’m walking toward him.
Unstable.
“Why Kim? Answer me Jason!
Answer!”
“Jamie, u have drank too much.
Now u get drunk don’t u know that?”
“I don’t care. Answer my question
Jason! Why Kim? Why not me? I am Jamie!!!!!”
“I better drive u home Jamie”
***
My
head feels so heavy. And I am in my room? Last thing I remembered was I talked
to Jason. What had happened? Mom said that Jason took me home last night. I was
drunk and threw up in his shirt. Me? Threw up in his shirt? Oh great! He won’t
even love a girl who drunk and had thrown up in his shirt!! Stupid Jamie!
“Hey, thanks for last night”
“Not a big deal though”
“Also, I want to apologize for
threw up in
ur
shirt. Mom told me that.”
“It’s ok.”
I don’t know what to say to him
and it seems that he don’t want to start to chat.
“About
ur
question last night……”
“What? My question?”
“Yeah, urs. I didn’t chose Kim,
we were just talking about some topic”
“Oh, I see then”
“And why I didn’t choose
Jamie…….. Because u are not Jamelia. For this past 2 months, u are trying to be
a person which is not u. I prefer Jamelia to Jamie. Jamelia won’t pretend to
enjoy going to club and drinking alcohol while she knew that it will make her
throw up and get a headache in the morning. She won’t put make up in her face
to be interested. She will just be her. And I love her. I love Jamelia. U may
think that not even one guy in this world who would love a girl like Jamelia. I
do. I do love her the way she is. So please Jamie, go back being her!”
“U love Jamelia?”
“Yes, I do”
“Jason, today and for the rest of
my life, I am Jamelia”
For
once I feel that Jamelia is very special and I guess I was wrong. There will be
always someone who likes and loves someone, no matter how they look, as long as
they just be themselves, someone will find someone. And me ended up kissing
with Jason and having my normal life with him.
The End
********************************
apa sebenernya yang hilang? nothing……cuma seorang temen yang ….entahlah…gw
banggain…gw keselin….yang suka gw cemooh…yang suka gw nasehatin…yang suka gw
perhatiin…yang coba gw ubah to be a better man….yang bikin joke bwt gw…yang bikin
gw senyum….yang kadang bikin gw bt tambah bt…..nevermind…… seorang teman yang
juga mantan gw….sering gw pikir mungkin kehadiran gw nyiksa dia…..dan harusnya gw
ga tutup mata tentang semua itu……..apa yang dia pendem apa yang dia rasa dan apa
yang penegn dia ungkapin……… entahlah….. walau sebenernya gw tau semua itu…dan
buat gw ngerasa kalau gw cukup worth it… tapi semakin gw pikir kalo gw ga akan pernah
bisa seperti yang dia inginkan gw jg ga penegn ngemanfaatin orang ato jadi orang yang
egois…….but may be i did… i became a selfish person for the past 5 months……
gw mungkin harus make it to the end….. dan yeah….it’s the best way for him……
like he always wanted…. udahlah..toh gw udah biasa berakhir kaya gini……. in the
end.. always like this……… perhaps i’ll miss the stupid jokes……. well just
hope he’ll find someone who is much much better who deserve him……. and the only
thing that left is only,………me.
—— *sigh
